As I See It

I am drunk.Just a wee bit,but drunk all the same.So if this post doesn’t make sense,just ignore!
Moving to a new city at the end of this month.College.Leaving behind friends.Memories.
I am sure I will make enough new ones,and believe me I am raring to leave!
All the same,this got me thinking about the term ‘loneliness’.And then I started thinking exactly what the word stood for.So ladies and gentleman,here goes my first drunk post.On loneliness!
All said and done, life does move on. But it makes you lonely in ways you never quite could have imagined.

Loneliness is knowing that the metro doors will not open to reveal a face familiar and loved. Or even known, for that matter. It is the daily reminder that your favourite coffee shop no longer is the first choice to spend a leisurely afternoon at. Being lonely is not being able to walk right into the homes you considered almost your own, especially when you need them the most. It is the cold fact that there isn’t someone a phone call away who’ll stay up till 3 a.m. just because you told them to.

Loneliness is not having reason to celebrate even when you have every single reason to. When you are greeted warmly by a stranger when you get good news instead of people who would have wished most fervently for your happiness. It is quietly smiling to yourself over a plate of cold food while congratulating yourself just a little.

It is the slight lump in your throat when you fake a little laughter now and then, while knowing what truly makes you laugh may not be there to cheer you up for a while. Loneliness is a broken conversation and lost threads with no way to preserve them till there is time enough to fix it all.

Loneliness is the heart wrenching paradox of life where you are alone even when you haven’t lost the people you pine for. They don’t leave you behind, and yet they do. Their memories keep you happy till you remember there won’t be any new ones to keep. And it hurts.
Loneliness is harsh, it doesn’t go away. Not when you’re surrounded by people, not when you block the world out. It stays, it keeps hinting at its ability to make you walk by some of the best days of your life without reminiscing even once.

But before all of this and more than all else, loneliness is a reminder that all of it matters, for now, only to you.


21 thoughts on “As I See It

  1. Nabadip! what happened dear?

    so much of a change and that too all of a sudden!

    the post reads superb and I loved every bit of it. The new theme is awesome and a reminder of the fact that someone is actually coming of age!

    cheers and best wishes for all that is to come. wishing you many many new friends and strengthened ties with all the old ones!


  2. Beautiful…every sentence! Perhaps you should stay drunk πŸ™‚
    Love the new look and all the best with whatever you are setting out to do.

  3. Post seems more conscious than drunk.
    Appreciate your thoughts, for your age.
    Sailing alone – remember this – with all the crew on board, the captain still sails alone.
    If I advise for what you are heading to – I would say – Be strong, energetic, be a giver and run spreading life.
    Bhai, the best of all the friends of life happen to us during graduation and we realize, we are more human!

    With love,

    • lets just say,its a consciously drunk post:P
      Thank you so much for the encouraging words,though as i said on the post,I really am not that lonely,I just wanted to dissect the term!!

  4. Yay, drunk post. I like those. Even pretend-drunk posts, so it’s a win-win for you. Sad about the whole moving affair. One’s gotta do what one’s gotta do. Where are you moving to? Maybe you already have friends there… you never know. πŸ™‚
    Oh, and I like this theme. Clean!

    • I am not really sad about moving,it’s going to be nice in a way..Hostel and all,but then it does mean staying away from the people in your life.
      Moving to Bhubaneswar!
      as for the theme,this one’s here to stay!

  5. Did you get a pseudo hangover?

    You weren’t drunk enough even though it’s a pseudo drunk. lol Get drunker…er…more pseudo drunk. Really tie one on and then write another one on the same word but talk about the internal stuff that
    the word kicks off for you. MORE DRUNK POSTS!

  6. ah the horror of leaving your home town made the ‘drunkard’ in you come out. Excellent write up. keep up the good work πŸ˜‰

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